BIG CELEBRATION!

I am blown away with the epiphany I had today!

Here it is….

I was —in it— last week.

Deep.

I felt hopeless. I felt like a failure.

Today I am face down in the mud. 

I can't see anything clearly. I am defeated. I can't tell who I am. I don't know if I have the strength to get back up. 

Brené Brown says....

In the U.S., Thanksgiving is a time for coming together, sharing a meal, and being thankful. 

And there is much to be thankful for.

But....

The results of last week's election in the U.S. have taken a toll on me.

Out the window went self-care, and in walked:

• Emotional eating - Hello, pizza and chocolate!

Tell me now (tell me now)
'n' show me how (show me how)
To understand (understand)
What makes a good man?
Tell me now (tell me now)
Hey walk the line (walk the line)

Be honest. 

When was the last time you lashed out because of fear, guilt, shame, or blame?

Within the last 24 hours? 

Shaun and I recently had a fight where both of us went to bed feeling triggered, hurt, and confused.

It started when I read him a piece from a book I am writing. And as if that wasn’t scary enough, I went on to share some uncomfortable and self-conscious feedback I was receiving from colleagues. 

For me, nothing is more important than connection. 

Connection is at the center of my education, my experience, my desires, my needs, and my hopes for the world.

I believe above all else, we seek connection—with parts of ourselves we have repressed, with other people, and with the universe.
 

A book. 

My spouse and I left the decision to marry one another up to a book. 

We were young, but we were also very responsible — to a fault.

I had just finished grad school and was teaching college classes — a life of the mind — when I stumbled across Carmen Electra’s Aerobic Striptease Collection.

I was overweight, stressed, and completely disconnected from my body.

Sex was the furthest thing from my mind.