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I was peeing in the car every few seconds from a UTI
Several years ago I developed a UTI so painful that in the car on the way to the emergency room, I was peeing every few seconds onto a stack of cloth diapers I'd placed under me.
The few seconds of relief I had paled into comparison to the sharp, burning, twisting pain I felt.
The UTIs I've experienced I've never directly correlated to having sex either consciously or unconsciously.
The rawness of my core wound comes around every year.
The most vulnerable thing I could ever do is ask if you'd spend my birthday with me.
Even as I write the words, tears flood my eyes and spill over.
A knot clenches in my gut, and my throat becomes so tight it's almost impossible for me to breathe.
I try to swallow it down, but the icy terror in my heart threatens to heave up and out of my body.
This is How I Realized My Heart is Numbed
Sometime recently a friend forwarded me a list of journaling prompts, questions to explore and really look at around pandemic, coronavirus, social distancing, COVID-19, shelter-in-place, quarantine, isolation, ventilators, ICU.
I kept her email and every once in awhile would open it up and read through the questions.
Well, actually, I'd read the first prompt and stop.
Heal With Your Partner By Feeling and Acknowledging These Pieces of You
When we show up to our relationship, we don't show up alone.
We come with:
Our inner child
Biology…and more
5 Things #MeToo Needs You To Heal In Your Relationship
When I shared with my partner that the foundation of my sex life has been guilt and pressure and performing pleasure for the benefit of lovers I've been with...
It didn't go well.
My partner and I were frozen around what to do after this revelation.
What did it mean about our relationship?
#1 Obstacle in the Way of Getting What You Want In Your Relationship
Before I even sat down with Shaun to record this week’s podcast, I was frustrated and angry.
You see, each episode is a snapshot into our relationship and into our lives at that moment.
We don’t preplan and prepare to manipulate you into seeing us in a certain way.